22nd May ’18- I did it!!

It may have been the hardest year of my life in a long time, I may have had many sleepless nights (especially within the last week) but yesterday was the hand in day of my last assignment and I could have not been even more ready for it. I felt so relieved that it was all completed.

I thought when decided to study again at the age of 32 it wouldn’t be that hard. I did my Foundation Degree 5 yrs ago, working and being a single mum and it was fine (I say fine because it wasn’t easy) I really enjoyed it. I don’t know if it was because it was connected to what I love which is Childcare and Education but it was so much easier than they one I did recently.

I thought that becoming a Teacher within FE would be just as easy. I couldn’t have been more wrong. I hated it. The only thing I did enjoy was the teaching. Teaching the subject I love. The course work was nothing like I expected. I did not find any of it helpful or even anything relating to what I do. I know that may sound a bit crazy because it’s obviously things you need to know to become a FE teacher but I felt I learnt so much more from my actual mentor (teacher) in my specialism subject than I did actually going to lessons. I don’t know how I got through actually writing my assignments because I had no idea what I was writing about half the time.

Many people, actually most of the people on my course have not enjoyed it and do not even want to go into teaching it has been that bad. We had our two teachers leave and got told one thing by someone and another by someone else. It was ridiculous I wonder where my £7500 went.

But never the less it’s done and hopefully I would have passed my last one and can teach Childcare and Education. The struggle I have at the moment is being a full-time single mum so as much as I would love to go straight into it, it is something that will have to take a back seat for the time being because the job is full on. But one day when my kids are a little bit older hopefully it will happen. For the meantime I need to go job hunting!! Scary times!!

My treat for handing in my last assignment!!

April 16th ’18- Why am I even Studying?

First day back today. I am dreading it. I have had about 5 weeks off from Uni. Not by my choice but because we have had no lessons. I have still been teaching but I enjoy that. The lesson I really do not enjoy.

I started my PGCE in September with all positivity to think that it will be a year out of my life that I can concentrate on becoming a teacher and specialise in Childcare and Education.  It was a big decision for me to give up my job, especially as I am a single parent with 2 children. I had quite a good job, worked  30 hrs a week and ran the baby room within a nursery. Had over 40 babies on role and 7 members of staff in which 1 was a student. I loved working with them and cuddling a baby but some of the hours were so long. I would work 9-6 2 days a week and (as well as different hours on other days) I was knackered. My mum had to pick up Lily for me and I wasn’t really spending quality time with her or Josh.  I had to go in some evenings for meetings and training and the work load was ridiculous. The next step for me was to become a manager of a nursery and I didn’t want that. I would have loved to have gone into Primary Teaching but I don’t have my Science.

So I choose Further Education. Post 16. I had students in the setting before and enjoyed teaching them new things. However the actually PGCE it’s self is not a great course. They don’t teach you how to plan a lesson, or write a scheme of work. They don’t teach you how to handle behaviour when  it comes to the classroom with older students. It is about things that don’t seem relevant to what I want to teach.

I enjoy the teaching side of it. I teach 16-19 yr. olds. Yes they can be hard work at times but normally i’s ok. I learn so much more from my mentor than I do in my lessons. I have completed 3 assignments now and feel like what has been the point in them? I spent £7500 on this course for what? So I can have the title of PGCE which allows me to teach Childcare.  We had 2 tutors to start off with who would both give us different information in relation to our assignments and had no idea what was going on. I have to say I am not the only one who feels this nearly everyone on my course does not enjoy it. There is a lot that don’t even want to go into teaching anymore. Surely a course shouldn’t be like that? It needs to be engaging to students and to teach them things that they will be using in a lesson like planning and marking work not about bloody neo-liberalism. That is not going to help me or my students.

To top it off both of out tutors have left, just like that without any notice and now we  have another teacher on one day who is so boring (half the class left at lunch on Monday it was that bad) I’m sure he just read off a Powerpoint that he had no idea what was on it. To support him there was also some lady who was helping. Like seriously we are adults 2 of you? On Friday we have someone else again. It’s ridiculous. None of us know who to contact, especially for observations and then get some random person. Great.

I cannot wait for this year to be over. I have loved the teaching and I have loved having more time with the kids and not being so stressed all the time. That has been the best thing ever but seriously where is my money going?